I’ve got some big news to share.
Things are drastically changing around JennaDalton.com (and it makes me want to cry and jump for joy at the same time).
Here’s the thing…
When I first found out I was pregnant I had all these grand plans of what my business would look like, how I’d keep working, how perfectly everything would magically fall into place.
Then as my little lady’s birthday got closer and closer, I realized that I wasn’t listening to what I really wanted.
I realized that my business will be here for another 10, 20, 30+ years if I want it to be. But I only get to experience my little girl’s firsts once – first cry, first smile, first giggle….
I started this business so I could have the life I wanted – more freedom, choice and fun.
So it’d be ridiculous for me to put myself in a position where I could end up feeling chained to my desk, totally sleep deprived, on the verge of tears trying to suffer through editing a blog post that’s scheduled to come out in t-minus 1 hour.
That doesn’t sound like freedom, choice, or fun at all!
So – while I initially wanted to create a do-it-yourself program for you to make money while I was playing with my newborn – I didn’t.
Because that would mean I would need to be there for you and my other customers (and in a timely manner). And I can’t guarantee that I can do that (at least without feeling overwhelmed, stressed, and like I have way too much on my plate). That’s just not fair to my community. If I’m going to be there for you, I want to really be there for you.
So – while I thought I should pre-write some blog posts and send them out during my maternity leave – I’m not.
Because that would mean I’d need to be in my inbox every week, or every other week so I could hang out with my community and get to respond to your comments. Which is something I love to do! Hanging out with you in the comments of my blog posts is one of my fave things. But I’m not positive I’d have the energy or desire to do that with a chubby cheeked sidekick on my lap.
So – while I’ve thought about this, cried over this, and even had several dreams about this – I know I’m making the right choice.
Because it makes me feel calm, excited and relieved.
Taking a step back and following my own advice (that I’ve written about, and shared with my clients so many times – to do one thing really, really well) is what I really, truly, deep down want.
I want to be a non-working mom (right now).
That’s the one thing I want to do really, really well.
So I’m taking some time off. I won’t be blogging, working with clients or doing anything with my business.
And while I’d love to say “I’ll see you in 3 months/6 months/1 year…” I have no idea when I’ll see you next.
The only commitment I’m making is that, if I want to work on my business (and I have the time), I have the freedom to work on it. But if I don’t want to, I don’t have to.
So I might see you soon.
Or it might be a year+ from now.
Or, in all honesty, this might be farewell for much, much longer (I’m still not exactly sure whether I’ll come back to this exact business and business model when I’m ready to jump back into things. Or if I’ll be doing something totally different).
I don’t know. We shall see.
At first, I thought I should jump right back into things post-birth because that’s what I’ve seen a lot of other business mamas do.
But then I realized that just because I felt like I should do it, didn’t mean it was the right choice for me.
This has been a huge lesson for me in listening. And I feel like it’s a potent example for you, too.
What are you “shoulding” in your life?
What are you committing to that makes you feel out of alignment with what you really want?
What are you doing just because someone, at some time said it was a good idea and you thought you needed to do it too – but it doesn’t feel totally right?
Success has over 7 billion different definitions. One for every person on the planet.
Happiness has over 7 billion different definitions. One for every person on the planet.
But in order to craft your definition, you need to actually explore what success means to you, what happiness means to you.
Right now, this is what success and happiness means to me – being the best mom I can possibly be and being able to have the freedom to be there for my little bean as much as I want with no other major commitments (like a business) to think about.
And – if I’m being honest – this goes much deeper than simply a business decision.
It’s incredibly personal.
Maybe you’ve heard the news that Scott Dinsmore passed away.
While I didn’t know him, I feel so much sadness and empathy surrounding his passing because I know what it feels like to suddenly lose someone with so much heart, potential and life left to live.
My brother-in-law died in an accident when he was 28 years old.
It’s been almost 8 years since I came downstairs in my parent’s house to find my dad on the phone – the look in his eyes telling me something was very, very wrong.
And for the last 8 years my perspective has shifted. Priorities have changed. Life has become more treasured.
Everything they say happens when you suddenly lose someone you love, happened.
I became the cliche – life is short.
And the fact that I have the opportunity – the gift – to spend as many hours as I want with my little girl (and take some time off before she gets here to enjoy my last few moments without a mini me) is too glorious an opportunity to pass up.
I have no idea what will happen next.
I have no idea if I’ll be back here soon (or at all).
I have no idea if another path – without this business – is in the cards for me.
And I’m so happy.
I’m so relieved.
I’m so excited.
It’s been fun.
It’s been hard.
It’s been fabulous.
Life is shaping up to be pretty darn awesome.
I just turned 30 last week.
I have a baby girl dancing in my belly ready to come out for snuggles very soon.
I’m lucky enough to enjoy an incredibly supportive baby daddy (AKA husband).
I have heart.
I have potential.
I have so much more life left to live.
And I’ve decided that this is how I want to live it.
Your support, your love, your comments, your shares, your trust in me has been incredible.
I’m going to miss you.
This wasn’t an easy decision.
But – while I’m crying as I type this – I know to the core that this is what I want. This is the choice I want to make. It feels right.
And as I make this transition I need to say thank you.
Thank you for letting me share a bit of myself with you.
Thank you for taking time out of your day to share how my words have helped you.
Thank you for giving me the chance to follow a dream and be a part of your life and business.
I’m going to miss you.
But I know you’ll be okay.
You’ll get what you need.
You already have a lot of what you need.
And you know you can always come say “hi” whenever you feel like it.
Keep on truckin’ – but stop shoulding.
Create a business that makes you giddy.
Create a life that makes you happy.
Create a space for yourself in the world that makes you proud.
I’ll catch you sometime down the line.
Either way, I have faith that you’re going to keep on rockin’.
Life is short.
Make it awesome.
Big hugs and so much love,